Ache
The light is coming through the window sideways, and there in my towel still dripping water onto the wood floor, is where my heart breaks with sudden surprise when he comes to tell me a friend has killed himself.
I sit on the white sheets and feel the blood rush up in my ears; denial [...]
A week in the Life: Wednesday (on Friday)
In the morning, first thing, snow coated the ground like sugar. Then it melted, and a soft rain started to fal, rinsing the remaining orange and yellow leaves; making them fall in wet heaps to the dark ground.
Every day hinges around these simple things: dishes stacked in the cupboard, food prepared, then put away. Each [...]
A Week In The Life:: Monday
Morning blur. All of the pictures I took today have this blurry quality. Such an apt reflection of my Monday. Here, Bean giggles in the covers as I get dressed. He’s such a big kid now–sleeping every night, all through the night, in his OWN bed. I still am marveling at this. It’s such a [...]
A Week In The Life:: Sunday
Drying my hair. Hating maternity clothes as much as I did last time. This is not a good start to the morning.
Breakfast = best part of the day. DH made biscuits (he makes the best.)
Yummy lemon curd to go with flakey, dreamy biscuits.
Then an insurmountable list of everything to do. I dropped the couch [...]
A Week In The Life:: Saturday
Morning light.
Shower.
Unmade bed.
Drying my hair.
Breakfast = broiled grapefruits w/brown sugar; croissants, soft boiled eggs; lattes.
Empty table.
Letting the geese out.
On the walk…
Inevitably the geese join us. Bean always bikes–in his bright yellow helmet with thunderbolts.
The frost has turned to dew.
Back inside, doing laundry I notice my mismatched polka dots.
Bean draws in the kitchen while [...]
And then there are days that are perfect crap.
Like today. When all I feel like doing is crying for no reason. When I come home from work and feel like I can’t give anything more to anyone but I have to, because DH has guitar lessons and it’s the mama show for bedtime routine and dinner tonight.
It rained all day. Maybe that [...]
A perfect afternoon.
Mellow autumn sunlight. A blanket. Orange leaves getting stuck in our hair. A pomogrante to share. Giggles. Juice on our fingers. Delight.
Small orbit
I want to write, but every time I sit down I feel my energy evaporate like moisture on hot pavement.
Five months pregnant, and my orbit has grown small. Small so that it only encompasses my growing family. As small as the round circle of the milky white moon climbing rung by rung into to the [...]
I can’t help wondering:
What would our country look like in a Depression now?
If we go into a depression, what will happen to artists–who base their incomes on the production of a commodity that doesn’t fall into the category of “survival”? Would there still be literary magazines? Galleries? Etsy?
If we go into a depression, what will happen [...]
Guess what?
It’s a boy!
I’m thrilled. I’ve always pictured myself being the mama of boys.
Exhibit A: Bean will clearly be the world’s best brother.
Exhibit B: Indubitably boy. (His leg is tucked up under him. It’s a direct crotch shot…which I thought twice about posting on the Internet, but then I thought about the 5 months of [...]
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